If someone reads a lot of books, they get respect by society they get to wear jackets with patches on there elbows over their turtle neck shirt of sweater I never know . People walk buy them s they sip tea and read their books and say “look there is a Well Read individual that surely is smart” and don’t call me surely hypothetical person I am walking with next to another hypothetical person. I don’t read much, or at least I don’t read as much as I would like to. For Pete’s sake or any other mans name sake I don’t even own a turtle neck. The reason being is I am to busy with really unimportant tasks. The task at hand is rather a task at my thumbs as I scroll though the exciting world of the world wide web. I send very much time scrolling. Yet, no one walks by me and says “ Look there is a well Scrolled individual”. Atlas my hobby is not one of much respect. IN fact so little respect that I hate it with most fibers of my body the other fibers are there to help maintain regularity. I really don’t like my habit. For me the biggest issue with the screens is that it all but completely eliminates any thinking of my own. I turn on the phone and turn of the brain. Yes for years tv was looked down upon as the same thing i.e. the boob tube. But I got to the point where I have immense respect for anyone that can watch 30 minutes of entertainment with out being distracted with a phone. If I spent all the time one my phone learning how to draw I would probably know how to draw. Instead I know how to scroll and don’t really know how to confront complex emotions as well. Instead of dealing with abstract feelings and ideas that might make me feel scared about the universe I turn on Instagram and look at people living I life that I can never achieve because I am to busy watching them to live one myself. Any way I am being very gloom. I don’t really know what the next steps forward is. I can delete “all the socials” but that’s not real. That only lasts until I make up an excuses like I need to catch up with friends or something else. Y’all all know I don’t have any friends. Its an issue that I obviously don’t face alone. We as a society are dealing with this new opium of the masses and there is no all knowing being possibly at the end of this road we are pursuing. That’s a communist thing abut religion. But everyone is addicted. We are all going through this together yet so alone. The early digital age is here and we are really luck to be experiencing it, if we wear alive 200 years ago our lives would be so much more boring. We would get excited about sliced bread and digital watches. instead we have this amazing information highway in our hands at all moments of the day. But because we are the first we are learning as we are going along how to live in this world and we have the onus to figure out how to live our lives in the digital age for future generations. All this to say that I am confused about the universe and my place in it and I am avoiding that by spending time on screens.